I’m Heartless Twyla, and I stop time by capturing feelings. In the early 2000s, I was a Filipina engineering student at the University of Washington in Seattle, diligently pursuing the Immigrant kid's American Dream - getting a good education & building toward stable employment, making my parents proud, and finding true love. But Bipolar Disorder had other plans for me. "Technicolor Nightmare" is an Alice in Wonderland coming-of-age story of a mental health crisis, shot on film and set in the neighborhood bars and hipster coffee shops of a Post-Grunge/Pre-Amazonian Empire Seattle. Book description My mental health diagnosis came around the time that Britney Spears shaved her head, so that was the cultural context I was navigating as a talented young girl growing up to become a mentally ill woman. I didn’t present any solutions in this book, but hopefully folks going through similar things will find comfort and kinship in what I’ve experienced and what I created from it. I see sharing my journey as a data point for others who want to see how a non-celebrity grapples with mental illness. For every Kanye West, there are hundreds of Twylas panicking about medical bills while trying to graduate, hold down a day job, and not ruin their relationships.