I am a volcano. I am headphones and joy division. I am charcoal and paper and unlimited cups of tea. I am a fever, I am electricity. It builds and builds and builds. I am a good woman until I am not. I'd like to run through the forest and throw rocks. I'd like to smash and kick the air. I'd like to scream from my guts until it shakes the trees. Instead, I'll draw. I will borrow your rock and roll smash it up energy safely from my sofa. I will screw up my face as I make the dark lines and I will break the charcoal instead. I will turn it up loud and I will disappear safely in your decades-old guitar sound and my heart will become the bass and I will go away in order to come back to myself again. And each time it will be new, a revelation - a raw delight. I will close my eyes and shake my head and realise that no one gets to feel this but me. There is no way to make you understand so I don't even have to try to explain. What freedom. I'll step into your screams and take them as my own, I will wear your rage as a cloak and I will keep drawing. When I am not painting my usual abstractions I enjoy my accidental portrait series. These gutless sketches are an extension of those but perhaps more stark, and raw, and a hell of a lot of fun. I drew this series while listening to Hole's song "Gutless" on repeat over a week in July, hence the title. Express yourself and support my work. There are 3 prints available from the gutless series as well as these originals as I always want folks to have access to art. Original drawing A3 size/11.7x16.5” 200 gsm heavyweight acid-free cartridge paper 2020