Rox

Sup ppl, Here we are. It's just you and me. You and me and you and me and me and you and- I won't beat around the bush, I despised coming to the conclusion that under capitalism making stupid shit is the bravest form of stupidity my privileged life can think of, but yet again life is too expensive and I'm too stupid with too many fucked up ideas and I'm getting old and dying too fast so here we are. Me and you. You've got a parasocial relationship with me? You think my tweets are funny? Do you want to study me like a bug? Or did you fell for the whole cosplayer charade? Yeah I tought so. So. We're here, you and me. You and me and capitalism, actually but I won't lie, I could be smarter with my expenses, I could start saving money, I could start not living in the moment but I still believe I'm young and if it doesn't kill me I'll still be able to go on eating rice for a month, so fuck yeah I'm buying that stupid shit and I'm regretting it later on. Sorry sorry I don't usually have all this space to write so it's weird, I wonder if once i'm done i'll get some stupid shit ass pop-up telling me "You're 30492 words off the limit :(" that would be so unfortunate because i'd have to make a post making this and it would feel way less spontaneous as it is now, i don't even know it that's how you spell that word and i'm not even checking, that's how toughtlessly i'm doing this. ANYWAY i keep saying i won't beat around the bush but i keep doing it because i HATE THIS but i hate more being stuck thinking "If Only I Hade Money I Could Do This" and now i'm thinking how this long introduction could both mesmerize ppl into giving me money or scare them away oh WHATEVER. So. It's you and I. Me and you. I want to do stupid shit but it costs money, and if you feel entratained by this above, by me or by whatevere brought you here now I will gently allow you to pity me by throwing money at me, hopefully towards making something that will make everyone angry and thinking and hating and loving and aprreciating life and their existence. Or cosplay i guess. I'd like to go back to do youtube, but not giving mucha fuck about algorithms and shit, I just wanna be creative. I've got my 9/5 covering my life expenses but yeah it's not enought extra cash for a camera and a decent pc that can edit stupid stuff. SO. If you want to help out a vaguelly privileged girl that is trying to survieve and be creative here is your chance, I've heard on this tedtalk that doing charity does mad shit to your brain but please don't do it for the dopamine do it because you want to see shit content made by an officle girly (i'm old as fuck but i'm still a girly. not a lady) when she has the time to scream alone in her apartment go ahead. Phew. I ain't re-reading this honey, i'm posting and i'm never checking this again Also please if you give me money know that i will forever feel uncomfortable and if you give high amounts i'll either close donw everything because I don't know how to deal with that or i'll akwardly thank you because i feel uncomfortable oh boy I DONT KNOW WHY I AM DOING THIASS FOR FUCKS SAKE no ok i know i want to make video againnn i want!!! i want to be creative like old young rox was, i wanna be silly and make people laugh and think. I believe life is about that. Be happy and do stupid shit. So yeah. Holly fuck it's great to have so much space to write omg look how multidimentional I am once i've got no stupid word limit to fuck me over!!! wow so cool Anyway it's me and you. And everyone else. Give me money if you want, don't if you don't want to, but don't expect anything personal from me because I can't deal with that stuff i suck! Rox out o7 PS: There was indeed a character limit. fuck my life

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